January 13, 2006
i resolve 2006.
in keeping with the last couple of years of resolving things, i'm taking a mini-inventory of the previous year. last year i tried to keep it simple, but in doing so, i think i kept it a wee bit vague. so it's a bit challenging to gauge my progress.
here we go:
1. i resolve to love my loved ones. to expend more energy and attention on the people i love. and less energy at work. i resolve to prioritize according to those who will never consider me expendable.
i suspect i might have a chronic problem. i did manage to take my first week-long vacaction last june that didn't involve a wedding, holiday gathering or some other imposed mandate. i spent a weekend in bainbridge for the annual ariel/andreas celebration, a long weekend in napa, and several visits to see the family. however, i still work horribly late, and take several days to return phone calls and emails to dear friends and family members. which is quite a sore spot, that i will be working to improve.
2. i resolve to sit down less. i sit down too much at the computer, reading books, drinking cocktails, watching movies, watching cable, sitting in meetings, sitting down for lunch, cramped in airplanes, reclining out on the front patio reading a newspaper, it's just altogether too much sitting.
erm, i think i'll be keeping this one on the list for 2006.
3. i resolve to invest in experiences, not things. running through my expenses, i was shocked at the portion of my income that goes toward stuff i think i just have to have. to quote gloria steinham, "We can tell our values by looking at our checkbook stubs." well, aside from my ACLU membership dues, i'm ashamed of myself.
hm. perhaps this is also a character flaw. i remain horribly seduced by the new boutiques on abbot kinney. i blame the women of A. Mason, Brick Lane and Minne T's for serving wine while i browse. libations don't seem to have much affect on my (un)willingness to give out my number in a bar, but they do seem to obliterate my ability to say no to an excellent handbag and the loyandford ensemble i have no business with.
perhaps if i combine #2 & #3, i'll have better luck this year.
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December 30, 2004
2004 resolution recap
for the last couple of years i've made a point to set resolutions and make sure i recap to see where i've netted out.
i think the key is keeping it simple, and achievable, as a result i'm surprised how they stick in my mind as i go through my year.
so here's my recap for 2004:
1. i resolve to learn to play the drums this year. properly. okay, well...i made a few attempts at starting drum lessons. but for some reason the drum instructors i connected with had a little trouble consistently fitting me into their schedules. of course i don't exactly have the most flexible schedule either. but i have managed to secure a drum set. so baby steps. i'll get them set up. stick my drumsticks in my back pocket. then we'll see.
2. i resolve to strengthen my poor post-injury body to that next year i'll be able to go skiing at least once. i've made some serious progress here. my body is much stronger. i've made it to the gym, and have managed to get myself into those croc charles david heels i refused to get rid of after my accident. perhaps the skiing idea will have to be a little more patient however.
3. i resolve to expand my social network to include more folks with something to say, and more grownup activities. i'm a little tired of waking up on sunday with a hangover and a foggy recollection of discussions about haircuts, second dates and where did you get those shoes?! this has gone very well. i've developed friendships with some of the most amazing people, and kept in touch with the most important people in my life. i'm surrounded by smart, amazing women with whom i can spend time into the wee hours of the morning digging into the things that are truly important. although i still crawl out of bed from time to time with a hangover and foggy recollections of the night before. i'm very pleased that my recollections have significantly more substance.
4. i resolve to travel. this is a long term resolution, but i specifically resolve to go to italy this year. or paris. whichever housing situation works out. ok. i've travelled, but it's pretty much been limited to domestic travels to meetings, tradeshows and family gatherings. unfortunately the whole italy/paris idea didn't happen. but i'm keeping it on the list for 2005. maybe london. we'll see.
5. i resolve to be less cynical about love. i didn't realize how hard this would be. but i've learned some important lessons this year. i've learned to listen more and to be more gentle with my lovers. i've had a few absolutely magical moments that have softened my poor scarred heart. i've managed to open myself up to beautiful people who give far more than they take. who knows, i may get there yet.
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October 16, 2004
lost lost.
my mother loves to tell this story. when i was very small, maybe three years old, my mother and her girlfriend were sitting in the front seat of the car, i was sitting in the backseat with my sister suzette. we were on our way to tahoe, and we'd managed to get lost.
my mother's friend had the map out and was trying to figure out where the hell we were and how to get where we were going. she kept repeating, "oh, if only i could just find my bearings. i just can't get my bearings!"
finally, throwing up my arms exasperated i chimed in from the back of the car, "well, where did you put them?!"
in retrospect, i think that was an excellent question.
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